disclosure begets disclosure, i firmly believe that.

i feel so goddamned useless. my own friends. yes....or maybe no?
this sounds childish, but perhaps they dont treat me as a pal anymore? or maybe i've failed. miserably.

sometime ago i posted a post on feeling distant from my friends....to the extent....that i felt so lost from them, so unwanted.............that only dar treasured me. only dar.

those whom i still call my friends....tell me where ive erred.

sigh. perhaps im not meant to have close friends. let's ditch the whole 21st bday crap - no1 wld turn up.... y'know what? i tink i sound pathetic. scoring ok for pl3238 isnt as impt as my friendships. as it already is..........i'm having trouble with one of them......and now i realise...it may b more.........

hell i sound pathetic. i shall move.

i shall remain here for the time being.
am feeling despondent. lonely. and sad.

but this is an outlet even dar knows nothing of.

got so bloody irritated w blogger - i cant post nor edit my template or anything. so a totally new blog, with a new archive to boot.

i'll copy over tdy's entry and all ltr.